Worse than Waiting for Christmas Morning!

We've done all we can now to get pregnant this month, so now its just a waiting game to find out if it worked!  This is the worst waiting game ever.. :(

There's plenty of things to do while we're waiting though.  For example, I've been filling up most of my time planning for next month's efforts if this one isn't successful.  Less alcohol for Jared (alcohol slows down his little men), more exercise for me.  Hooray.  I've also started to really kick the soda (I mean it, this time.. no, I swear, I really am done with it).  We've also talked about all the possibilities - sickness/disabilities, twins (or more..please no), abnormal pregnancies, etc - and what we would do in each situation.

We've talked about the differences in how all of this is affecting us.  I wrote in a previous blog about my friend telling me pregnancy is kinda a lonely experience.  No one else is going through exactly what you're going through, and your husband will never fully understand it.  I see that now.  At this very moment, I could have another human being living inside of me.  I'm extremely excited and a little scared about that.  This all got very real for me when we tried to get pregnant knowing I was at my most fertile point (thanks to the ovulation test).  But for Jared, this won't be real until we tell everyone we're going to be parents (I'm not assuming this, its what he said).  I know we'll get there soon, but I wish we were on the same emotional page from the start.  This does feel lonely. 

In about a week, I'm going to take a pregnancy test (or two), and we have our fingers crossed that it'll be positive.  I feel like I got a sign yesterday that this is the case.  I went to my cousin Danielle's baby shower, and they played the word game.  We couldn't say "baby" or "Sadie" (the baby's name), and if we did, we had our game piece taken from us.  The person with the most pieces at the end of the shower won a prize.  I kept an ear open to everyone around me and ended up with 10 pieces at the end.  I opened the prize, and it was an outdoor decoration with an owl on it.  I haven't mentioned this yet in my blog (cause it would be crazy to think this far ahead for normal people), but I really love owls for a baby's room theme.  I had to take this as a sign that I'm pregnant! :)